Long before I even got pregnant with Kayleigh, I dreamed about what kind of mother I would be. I always pictured myself to be a stay at home Mom, devoting all of my attention to my kids. I thought I would also be a crunchy kind of Mom – cloth diapering, breastfeeding until at least 1 year old, and making my own baby food at home.
Well, things don’t always go as you plan. This is something I have been trying to learn how to deal with since I’ve had Kayleigh. I’ve always been a planner. When something comes up to ruin my plan, it is very difficult for me to cope with it. I don’t do well with change. Once I have my heart set on something, it needs to happen.Source: http://quotationaboutlife.com/
The first thing I gave up on was cloth diapering. I actually gave up on that idea while I was pregnant with Kayleigh. I never even tried it out. I was so very interested in cloth diapering. It’s so much better for the environment and would save us a lot of money. I scoured the internet for information about cloth diapering, because I didn’t have a clue how to do it. Do you know how many different kinds of cloth diapers are out there?! Too many! And then there are things called inserts and covers, and flats and pre-folds…. huh?!
I read, and read and read, but I couldn’t make any sense of it. I gave up.
I’m actually not at all sad about that decision. Every time Kayleigh has a blow-out diaper, I’m relieved that I can just toss it in the trash can and forget about it. I don’t have a very strong stomach, so hand-washing a poopy cloth diaper, is not really something I’m interested in doing.
Next came breastfeeding. I know breastfeeding does amazing things for babies and their development. There are so many other healing uses for breastmilk too. I hated breastfeeding from the start, but I gave it my best try. I really did. After three months though, I just couldn’t deal with it anymore and I stopped. I can’t even tell you how much relief I felt that first full day that I went without breastfeeding. I felt like a million bucks. I was so happy to have my body back. I was so happy not to worry if I was producing enough milk. I was so happy that I didn’t have to spend hours trying to pump milk unsuccessfully. Three months is better than nothing at all!
When Kayleigh was about 5 months old, I bought a Magic Bullet with the intention of making baby food at home. The first few weeks went great! Kayleigh loved the peas, green beans, carrots, squash, sweet potatoes, and oatmeal I made for her. But then, what seemed like out of nowhere, she just wasn’t interested in eating real food anymore. She’s already very small for her size (in the 5th percentile), so I was worried that she wasn’t getting enough to eat, or gaining enough weight. That, combined with the fact that my Magic Bullet died, just completely bit the dust, after only a couple months of use, ruined my plans to make baby food. I started buying Earth’s Best Organic Baby Food, and guess what? Kayleigh loves it! Over the last couple of months, she has grown quite a bit.
Kayleigh is happy and healthy, and that’s all I can ask for as her Mom.